The Long Road

08/17/2003 Archived Entry: "Try wearin’ a corset"

Some forms of pain are fun. Like bruises. Whenever I have a bruise it’s always super-tempting to press on it. Like trying to tickle ourselves, pressing on our own bruises doesn’t really hurt; I rather like the dull, warm pain of it. Same thing with sore muscles from a good work-out. But I guess that’s a little different, sore muscles feel good because they’re a sign that I really exerted myself, that I went the extra mile (literally). Using sore muscles the next day is wonderful!

I think I have the same attitude when it comes to emotional pain. Like digging up an old wound to see if it can still hurt (it always does), or making sure that whatever pain being inflicted is being served at its fullest ("do your worst!") or even going out of my way to get a knife plunged and then twisted. I seem to very apt at putting myself in these situations. Do I get any satisfaction from this? I really don't think so - not in any longterm sense. I’m sure these are not the healthiest things to do but for some reason I do them. Maybe I should stop it.

And now back to your regularly scheduled, detached, non-personal commentaries.

Replies: 7 comments

I know what you mean. I think it's in human nature to keep poking at an old wound every once in a while. And I too seem to go out of my way to get the whole knife in the back thing. Maybe it's a weird recessive gene. That would explain it.

Posted by Andrea @ 08/17/2003 10:51 AM EST

Perhaps sometimes we just don't want things to heal...

Posted by Hyperion @ 08/18/2003 01:15 AM EST

Bruises fun?!?!...that's the first I hear of it!

Posted by dAN @ 08/18/2003 06:56 AM EST

Speaking of corset...*drool*...Keira Knightley

Posted by dAN @ 08/18/2003 10:45 PM EST

Maybe we're all really masochistic.

Posted by Rayne @ 08/19/2003 01:35 AM EST

I find going back over things over and over again as more and more time passes helps in the analyzation of it all. Views and opinions change over time and you can see habits and patterns in the actions, weather destructive or constructive.

Posted by Romer @ 08/19/2003 09:21 AM EST

weather? or whether? ;)

Posted by shawnathan @ 08/28/2003 01:50 PM EST